Been quiet for the last few weeks.

Been looking for a new house, and with that comes all the fancy paperwork involved, offers, counter-offers, and estimations for repairs once I move in. It's insane to realizing that a fair majority of people who are selling their house are pricing themselves out of the market due to their own short-sightedness, or inversely, how greedy people are trying to flip a property with an unsound foundation by trying to pass off the 'improvements' you made as being worth 40k of value added.

Haven't really had time to invest in my music, but I'm still tinkering, just haven't posted anything. Working more on the back-end of music stuff- Audio EQ, Filters, Delays, ambient spaces and the like. I haven't really had the drive to focus on my music entirely, and by extension, myself.

I find myself lingering on the usual thoughts that have plagued me for the last decade.

What if I'm not good enough? What if this album isn't as good as my last? Why do I bother keeping an online presence?

I'm mature enough to acknowledge that these thoughts are juvenile in origin, and I do not interact with them beyond their utterance. They're allowed to breathe for a moment before I let them disappear and focus on other things. It's a nuanced and complicated sort of affairs I interact with on a regular basis with myself. It's never judgmental, simply observational in nature, and I know that deep in my heart, I am doing well for myself; perhaps it's being dumbfounded by the margin of success I've achieved in such a short amount of time. I suppose that's also compounded by the small question that forms in the back of my mind, which is why am I not even more successful? A gremlin formed this thought. A bastard gremlin that takes and never gives. I never give this little thing the time of day, and neither should you.

I've prepared the release of my next album to be October 31st this year. I'm anticipating a large amount of tracks for a reasonable price, perhaps 20 dollars for about 50 tracks. Probably less. In that same topic, I've hired a few artists to provide album art and I'm busy writing liner notes to offer in a PDF file once the album hits bandcamp. I wonder if I could ask the Citadel Community if they were interested, though I also believe I should compensate them for this. Trying to do right by people is probably the most important thing I can do as an artist, right next to being honest and open. The world's done a good job hardening my heart to people, but I would be remiss if I didn't try to help others who were in the same position I was in when I first started, just a little bit.

For a long time, I was concerned with failure. But as an older man, I've learned to accept failure as part of my journey. Open to being crushed by those who do not understand, or those who see what I do as opposition to their own livelihoods. They have nothing to fear, though it probably won't stop them from punching down at people like me. That's fine. Everyone's on their journey. Punch down, if it makes you feel better. I'm not going to punch. I'm just going to work on my music. If you want to be along for the ride, cool. I'll be here.

If you want to reach out and have a conversation, or just to send me your thoughts, concerns, complaints, you can reach me at mothman47@zohomail.com. I make it a point to check my e-mail at least once a day.